Positivity

Today I focused on being positive. I learned that I am often too hard on myself. I criticize myself incessantly. I struggle to forgive myself and to move on. Yeah I'm not perfect, but that doesn't mean that I'm not trying it just means that I'm Human it means that I exist and, in fact, it means I am trying. The simple recognition that I am not perfect and that I have room for improvement points to and correlates to the fact of my struggle, A.K.A. my attempts, my trials, my progress. Struggling is a symptom of growth. When one physically lifts something outrageously heavy, for long periods of time, one begins to struggle. Sometimes we quiver, sometimes we shudder, sometimes we drop the weight. That means that we tried. The mere fact that our muscles struggle, shows growth. It shows that we are trying. It shows that we have begun a process of healing.
     To me it is important to remember that this whole addiction is a process of and for learning and growth. My struggles are not my own. There are countless people who struggle with addictions, and especially a lot of people who struggle with addictions to pornography and masturbation. Not to mention the lustful thoughts and actions. The desires that we simply wish we didn't have. I know it's hard, believe me I get it.
     It's been at least four years now I think. Not that I am keeping a strict count.
But yeah, thanks guys, keep it up, try again, you got this.